Moving forward! a different way for me!

 I'm writing this by using my voice as it seems to be quicker so that I can get more written up in a short of time for what I want to talk about because of my disability and my feelings of depression.

This post is just going to be about how I've been feeling properly over the last couple of months I wanted to make sure that the disabled people were being noticed generally in the public eye not just hidden away and ignored because of problems. Not astigmatism in the sense of people. However, it is not working so well talking about how the way I feel because of the way things have been regarding my disability and frustrations and I know that life will change in the future.

but I don't want to I want to be as normal as possible and it's not always possible to.

I know that I have a limited time with the ability to walk, that's not much longer and will end up in a wheelchair. which is not what I want, but it is what will happen if I'm not careful.

So l when I decided to write this out today. I decided that I’d rather do it quickly via voice typing rather than type exactly what I'm saying until I've finished what I wanted to talk about.

Because I wanted to

mentioned in another post and that is my day-to-day feelings of depression blog. it's not nice all the time. it has a positive side of things because I can write more often, quickly and that I have no criticisms from the other people who I would generally consider as high-end bloggers. however much I would like to do it as a job and just what I'm trying to do I'm not doing it in the considered normal way because of my disability abilities and so there are days I do and there are days when I want to just curl up and not do anything. I would rather than not do anything I've decided to a daily blog on Tumblr. And put my actual thoughts out. Whereas this is just going to be a summary of what has been going on because this is something I haven't thought was viable for this website. Because it's not saying everything but maybe I should do more about that, or not, I haven't got a clue. I will be going to this in more detail possibly in more posts. other than I am going to start typing out this way because it's a lot easier for me than spending hours every day typing up. I can just think about what is being said and added directly into my post before editing it and getting ready to be posted and up on the site. it also means that I will be able to deal less. Because I can say what I want and not just type what I'm thinking using complicated words and using less complicated words so much I would do and pass it through and edit it making sure that it's for people who understand what I'm talking about and having complex needs with my cerebral palsy. I have made it very difficult at times to write and say anything in the actual blog without feeling awful.

So this is another way of doing it yet quickly. Doing short posts on Tumblr seme easier than the other way for me.

The conditions I have got with the condition is clinical depression, g a d which is, general anxiety disorder, endometriosis and arthritis. A lot of the time I'm I'm not feeling like I can say anything positive about my disability. it's this frustrating me it's making me feel like I can't do anything and I began to post today on my Tumblr post log because of the way I was feeling and it can be quickly written. And this can't be. Because it needs to be formatted in a way that people can understand what I'm talking about. I'm learning to collaborate because it is making it easier. I will put it in a section for the website so that it can be got at privately by someone if they want to read this one rather than outright public I want to give us much as I can for free about disability yet I want to be able to earn a little bit. I again do that to improve my podcast, my vlogs once a week and my blog.

I have been testing it, seeing how much I can get written up rather than typing. It does make it a lot more easily use for me to do. I will be thinking about typing this quickly each day and putting more out by this way and if I don't use Google, directly for it then I will be using otter.ai which is another format for my website. That I use when I do the vlogs, audio for my podcast, before the written version which I put on my blog.

So far though this has been the best way to get what I want to say rather than typing. Because I'm able to keep up with what I'm thinking rather than having to stop and type everything. Mentally it is a freer way of saying something rather than having to type and it makes it a lot easier for me and the less stressful, mental deadline for each post I write.