Oh no! Not again!
I have been struggling with things the last few weeks. I hate having them but depression and anxiety have been a real big struggle for me and I’m still having moments daily with anxiety kicking in. I know why but they are things that are out of my control. These are things that change the future of myself and the family and these things are scary. They are exciting but scary too.
Dealing with each emotion as they come:
For me, 4 main emotions come across me in anxiety and these are:
- Fear
- Worry
- Anger
- Frustration
These are because of the worry for the future and my family and the fact I am worried that what I want for the future
Fear:
I have an amazing family and I am not sure what is going to happen in the future for them. I want them to be happy and do exactly what they want to do. Even if at the moment I have to consider my own life at the same time for the now.
Worry:
Here things seem to be more stressful. But here are where things are less controllable. Because of the things I am planning for the future. I find that the people I am waiting for have their decision before I can take the next step for our goals.
Anger:
This feeling is because of the worry from the plan not going ahead as planned
Frustration:
Again this emotion is coming up because of the other feelings that are brought up by other peoples actions or lack of action. Causing the uncertainty of the future for everyone else. Because I am not really worried about myself.
What do I do?
- Acknowledge the feelings
- Keep busy
- Read
- Listen to podcasts
- Listen to music
- Eat
- Write my posts here.
But there are lots of different ways you can deal with them. Some of them are negative so although they are known I won’t mention them here. But the following are:
- Reading
- Watching movies
- Listening to podcasts
- Listening to books (Audible)
- Sleeping
- Have a shower
- Eat comfort food.
What Now!
This is up to you because anxiety and depression are often interlinked and can be helped. Although it is said that you can be cured I feel that you can’t be cured but it can be held at bay for an indefinite length of time. As it's always possibly going to come back because of some event that could trigger it.
For Me.
Because of my own feelings that I mention I have decided to incorporate various things here so that there are different ways to show you that although there are many differences between people like me with disabilities and those of you who are reading this post who don’t have any physical condition but yet suffer from similar mental conditions. I am starting to bring things to a complete circle to prove that we are capable of doing things. There will be various ways to learn about cerebral palsy from a personal view. I can’t wait to show you.
